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Brief Summary of History Update for context on what's effecting him (Because you don't want to go through the 10k word summary I wrote for keeping track of things e_e)
Llewellyn’s been through a lot by this point, more notably in his personal life than work life. Falling in love, feeling like he was wanted and worth taking risks for… For a while, everything goes well, aside from some bumps due to case work and some uncertainty about how his boss will handle things if it gets out. But still, he felt happy for probably the first time in a long time. So in return, he took risks for said love including outing himself to his inspector to protect the man, then finding out he wasn’t worth as much to the person as he’d been led to believe and losing them a little over a year later despite his best attempts to fix things.
He sinks quite low, spending more time in bars and brooding a fair amount. His patience is shorter, and he eventually gets so desperate to not be who he is, he tries to forcefully change himself by trying conversion therapy. At the time, it seems better, rather than possibly be alone for the rest of his days. Especially when it feels like the world will never allow him to be loved. If anything (unsurprisingly), it leaves him traumatized and more unstable than before.
Which is why, still desperate to not be alone, he accepts Jack’s attempt to rekindle things on the side while he’s married.
The relationship isn’t what it was before, unfortunately... More often than not, Llewellyn is put aside for the other man to spend time with his new wife (who does not approve of Llewellyn) and son.
Jack tends to dictate when and what they do together, even ignoring Llewellyn’s concerns over going to a horse track to gamble (Llewellyn had a gambling problem pre-series) because it was what he wanted to do. When it comes time for something Llewellyn suggested, Jack makes an excuse and leaves to spend time with his new family instead as soon as he spots them in the distance.
He often tells Llewellyn that his marriage protects their relationship from the public, but Llewellyn even points out there isn’t much of a relationship to protect at this point.
During this time, he meets a poet by the name of Milo Strange. Both are incredibly attracted to one another, and share a lot of similar interests. Still, Llewellyn refuses to move past just being friends because of his ‘relationship’ with Jack, much to Milo’s frustration. The poet tries to point out that Llewellyn deserves better, but the attempt is often met with awkwardness and denial.
Everything comes to a breaking point when Jack’s wife disappears, only to turn up dead. Murdered by what appears to be one of Jack’s personal knives from his butcher shop. Llewellyn’s trust issues eventually get pushed past their limit, as the other man’s behavior flip-flops from caring to not seeming to care that she’s gone. He starts to become increasingly suspicious and, as much as Llewellyn desperately wants to believe Jack is innocent; he finds that he can’t fully trust him and continues to pursue the case for answers. Eventually, when evidence piles rather high against Jack, the man kidnaps his stepson and flees the city.
It’s only after this that they discover a second suspect. The wife’s past lover (and the child’s birth father), who murdered her for marrying Jack and letting the man raise their son. In an attempt to find Jack, the man attacks and knocks out Llewellyn, dragging him off to an old, abandoned building to interrogate him for answers.
Of course, Llewellyn doesn’t know anything. Even if he wouldn’t give up Jack and the kid’s location, he didn’t even have an idea of where they went. This ends up angering his captor, and after having to listen to a very homophobic rant, the man tries to murder him. He would have died if the Inspector hadn’t gone looking for him and walked in just in time to stop the man.
After the arrest, Llewellyn tries to reach out to Jack to let him know his name was cleared, but no one knew where he’d gone and we don’t see him again.
He does try to move on with his life again, allowing himself to move forward with Milo… He’s even happy again for a while.
Unfortunately, it wasn’t meant to last as he discovers the other man wasn’t really interested in a serious relationship when Milo leaves town with another man after spending a week ignoring any attempts to contact him. As it turns out, Milo keeps a collection of lovers and he decides when he wants to see or spend time with each of them.
Llewellyn is left feeling very uncertain of where he stands, casual isn't something he does well...
He's also had a continued influx of cases that make him question his job and the people he works with. Between unjust resolutions, biased and bigoted views about different people, and having a man die in his arms (within the last day or two) after they fail to anticipate what an angry father of the victim in their case might do... He's starting to think more on his future there.
Llewellyn’s been through a lot by this point, more notably in his personal life than work life. Falling in love, feeling like he was wanted and worth taking risks for… For a while, everything goes well, aside from some bumps due to case work and some uncertainty about how his boss will handle things if it gets out. But still, he felt happy for probably the first time in a long time. So in return, he took risks for said love including outing himself to his inspector to protect the man, then finding out he wasn’t worth as much to the person as he’d been led to believe and losing them a little over a year later despite his best attempts to fix things.
He sinks quite low, spending more time in bars and brooding a fair amount. His patience is shorter, and he eventually gets so desperate to not be who he is, he tries to forcefully change himself by trying conversion therapy. At the time, it seems better, rather than possibly be alone for the rest of his days. Especially when it feels like the world will never allow him to be loved. If anything (unsurprisingly), it leaves him traumatized and more unstable than before.
Which is why, still desperate to not be alone, he accepts Jack’s attempt to rekindle things on the side while he’s married.
The relationship isn’t what it was before, unfortunately... More often than not, Llewellyn is put aside for the other man to spend time with his new wife (who does not approve of Llewellyn) and son.
Jack tends to dictate when and what they do together, even ignoring Llewellyn’s concerns over going to a horse track to gamble (Llewellyn had a gambling problem pre-series) because it was what he wanted to do. When it comes time for something Llewellyn suggested, Jack makes an excuse and leaves to spend time with his new family instead as soon as he spots them in the distance.
He often tells Llewellyn that his marriage protects their relationship from the public, but Llewellyn even points out there isn’t much of a relationship to protect at this point.
During this time, he meets a poet by the name of Milo Strange. Both are incredibly attracted to one another, and share a lot of similar interests. Still, Llewellyn refuses to move past just being friends because of his ‘relationship’ with Jack, much to Milo’s frustration. The poet tries to point out that Llewellyn deserves better, but the attempt is often met with awkwardness and denial.
Everything comes to a breaking point when Jack’s wife disappears, only to turn up dead. Murdered by what appears to be one of Jack’s personal knives from his butcher shop. Llewellyn’s trust issues eventually get pushed past their limit, as the other man’s behavior flip-flops from caring to not seeming to care that she’s gone. He starts to become increasingly suspicious and, as much as Llewellyn desperately wants to believe Jack is innocent; he finds that he can’t fully trust him and continues to pursue the case for answers. Eventually, when evidence piles rather high against Jack, the man kidnaps his stepson and flees the city.
It’s only after this that they discover a second suspect. The wife’s past lover (and the child’s birth father), who murdered her for marrying Jack and letting the man raise their son. In an attempt to find Jack, the man attacks and knocks out Llewellyn, dragging him off to an old, abandoned building to interrogate him for answers.
Of course, Llewellyn doesn’t know anything. Even if he wouldn’t give up Jack and the kid’s location, he didn’t even have an idea of where they went. This ends up angering his captor, and after having to listen to a very homophobic rant, the man tries to murder him. He would have died if the Inspector hadn’t gone looking for him and walked in just in time to stop the man.
After the arrest, Llewellyn tries to reach out to Jack to let him know his name was cleared, but no one knew where he’d gone and we don’t see him again.
He does try to move on with his life again, allowing himself to move forward with Milo… He’s even happy again for a while.
Unfortunately, it wasn’t meant to last as he discovers the other man wasn’t really interested in a serious relationship when Milo leaves town with another man after spending a week ignoring any attempts to contact him. As it turns out, Milo keeps a collection of lovers and he decides when he wants to see or spend time with each of them.
Llewellyn is left feeling very uncertain of where he stands, casual isn't something he does well...
He's also had a continued influx of cases that make him question his job and the people he works with. Between unjust resolutions, biased and bigoted views about different people, and having a man die in his arms (within the last day or two) after they fail to anticipate what an angry father of the victim in their case might do... He's starting to think more on his future there.
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