Llewellyn pick up a book off a sizeable stack that he’d brought with him that afternoon before he turned to face Felix. They were both sitting on the steps outside the Boy’s Home, other kids coming and going around them while he held out the first book. “I enjoyed this book tremendously, I think you will to.”
Taking the book, Felix opened it curiously to leaf through the first few pages. Really, the kid reminded him so much of himself at that age. The chance to read something new, to either learn or simply get lost in an adventure and escape the world around you... It really had been just as strong back then as it was now. After a moment, Llewellyn turned back to the pile and sorted through it for another book by the same author. I know it’s here somewhere...
“Annnd...” Ah— there it is! He pulled it from the pile quickly, “This— it’s also by Jules Verne, but it’s not yet been translated into English.” Glancing at Felix, he gestured lightly at the cover. “Do you know any French?”
Nodding, Felix responded with a little less certainty. “A little bit...”
Turning the cover over in his hands, Llewellyn considered it for a moment. He didn’t think Felix would have a problem with it, it’s not a difficult read after all... But then again, languages always come easily to him... He’d realized over the years that it wasn’t the case for everyone.
Still, was a good chance to practice and get better. Felix is a smart kid, for all that he lacks the confidence. Llewellyn wanted to help boost it if he could, knowing how hard it was and how easily the world would try to beat him down and make him think less of himself for simply being who he was. Now that his best friend was gone...? Who would keep an eye out for trouble, who would make sure Felix had what he needed beyond the minimal care that the home offered...?
Llewellyn absently thought to himself, he would... Or he wanted to try. “Well! See how you get on with it. The illustrations are exceptional.” Handing it over the detective quickly moved on, turning back to the pile animatedly and picking the rest of it up. “And I’ll bring you more books...” He plopped the rest of the pile on top of the other books the kid was holding, “When you’re done with these.”
Felix poked through them eagerly for a moment, before he glanced up at Llewellyn from under his hat with an all too familiar expression. One the detective himself had worn (still sometimes wore) when he couldn’t quite figure out what someone was playing at. So often people expected something in return for kindness... “Why are you being so nice to me?”
Yup... There it was. Shaking his head a bit, feeling a frown creeping onto his face as he paused and considered how to explain. It’s difficult really, talking about his own life... Because to talk about it means having to think about it (he really didn’t want to think about a lot of it). But this was important, there are no strings attached to these gifts. It’s just one person remembering what it was like to be that age, without anyone to turn to. Felix needed to know that. “Well... I was an orphan to.”
The only difference is that he’d avoided being thrown into the Boy’s Home. He’d built a family around him, regardless of the trouble and trauma that had made up a large portion of his youth because of it.
Felix had no one now, and even if Murdoch had seen to it that Brother Duvalier was fired? It didn’t mean the next person that was put in charge of the home would be any kinder... That the abuse wouldn’t start all over again. The kid needed to know there was someone he could trust if things got bad again. Llewellyn wanted to know if the cycle started over, to avoid anything bad like what happened to Westley Seaver from happening again.
Felix cuts off his thoughts, sounding rather confused and a little shocked. “And... And now you’re a detective??”
It shouldn’t be so surprising, but considering where people like himself and Felix were expected to end up in life...? The low expectations, the assumptions by the well off and society in general that you’d end up working your life in quarries, in factories, or just whatever low expectation job on the streets of the city that you could imagine...
Llewellyn can tell it’s already been drilled into the kids head, that he can’t expect more than that. He’d fix that thinking, or at least he’d try to. “I am! As you could be— one day... Or! Anything you want to be.”
Felix shook his head, just cementing his suspicions. This damned world and the events of the last few days certainly hadn’t helped that... “No...”
The damage that society had already done was clear... Llewellyn had worked hard over the years to prove that the world wrong about him. To learn and present himself as more than society thought he should be. There was no reason why Felix shouldn’t be able to too. “You certainly can, where we start out in this world needn’t define where we end up.”
And he’d remind him, every time he checked in to make sure things were okay here. To drop off more books, and offer encouragement. A small part of Llewellyn wished that he could just get the kid out of there, to adopt and give him a stable home like he and the rest of the children here deserved... But Llewellyn knew it was impossible, and to even try would be cruel. To get up hopes only to see them crushed would be unfair, but he would still do what he could...
Taking the book, Felix opened it curiously to leaf through the first few pages. Really, the kid reminded him so much of himself at that age. The chance to read something new, to either learn or simply get lost in an adventure and escape the world around you... It really had been just as strong back then as it was now. After a moment, Llewellyn turned back to the pile and sorted through it for another book by the same author. I know it’s here somewhere...
“Annnd...” Ah— there it is! He pulled it from the pile quickly, “This— it’s also by Jules Verne, but it’s not yet been translated into English.” Glancing at Felix, he gestured lightly at the cover. “Do you know any French?”
Nodding, Felix responded with a little less certainty. “A little bit...”
Turning the cover over in his hands, Llewellyn considered it for a moment. He didn’t think Felix would have a problem with it, it’s not a difficult read after all... But then again, languages always come easily to him... He’d realized over the years that it wasn’t the case for everyone.
Still, was a good chance to practice and get better. Felix is a smart kid, for all that he lacks the confidence. Llewellyn wanted to help boost it if he could, knowing how hard it was and how easily the world would try to beat him down and make him think less of himself for simply being who he was. Now that his best friend was gone...? Who would keep an eye out for trouble, who would make sure Felix had what he needed beyond the minimal care that the home offered...?
Llewellyn absently thought to himself, he would... Or he wanted to try. “Well! See how you get on with it. The illustrations are exceptional.” Handing it over the detective quickly moved on, turning back to the pile animatedly and picking the rest of it up. “And I’ll bring you more books...” He plopped the rest of the pile on top of the other books the kid was holding, “When you’re done with these.”
Felix poked through them eagerly for a moment, before he glanced up at Llewellyn from under his hat with an all too familiar expression. One the detective himself had worn (still sometimes wore) when he couldn’t quite figure out what someone was playing at. So often people expected something in return for kindness... “Why are you being so nice to me?”
Yup... There it was. Shaking his head a bit, feeling a frown creeping onto his face as he paused and considered how to explain. It’s difficult really, talking about his own life... Because to talk about it means having to think about it (he really didn’t want to think about a lot of it). But this was important, there are no strings attached to these gifts. It’s just one person remembering what it was like to be that age, without anyone to turn to. Felix needed to know that. “Well... I was an orphan to.”
The only difference is that he’d avoided being thrown into the Boy’s Home. He’d built a family around him, regardless of the trouble and trauma that had made up a large portion of his youth because of it.
Felix had no one now, and even if Murdoch had seen to it that Brother Duvalier was fired? It didn’t mean the next person that was put in charge of the home would be any kinder... That the abuse wouldn’t start all over again. The kid needed to know there was someone he could trust if things got bad again. Llewellyn wanted to know if the cycle started over, to avoid anything bad like what happened to Westley Seaver from happening again.
Felix cuts off his thoughts, sounding rather confused and a little shocked. “And... And now you’re a detective??”
It shouldn’t be so surprising, but considering where people like himself and Felix were expected to end up in life...? The low expectations, the assumptions by the well off and society in general that you’d end up working your life in quarries, in factories, or just whatever low expectation job on the streets of the city that you could imagine...
Llewellyn can tell it’s already been drilled into the kids head, that he can’t expect more than that. He’d fix that thinking, or at least he’d try to. “I am! As you could be— one day... Or! Anything you want to be.”
Felix shook his head, just cementing his suspicions. This damned world and the events of the last few days certainly hadn’t helped that... “No...”
The damage that society had already done was clear... Llewellyn had worked hard over the years to prove that the world wrong about him. To learn and present himself as more than society thought he should be. There was no reason why Felix shouldn’t be able to too. “You certainly can, where we start out in this world needn’t define where we end up.”
And he’d remind him, every time he checked in to make sure things were okay here. To drop off more books, and offer encouragement. A small part of Llewellyn wished that he could just get the kid out of there, to adopt and give him a stable home like he and the rest of the children here deserved... But Llewellyn knew it was impossible, and to even try would be cruel. To get up hopes only to see them crushed would be unfair, but he would still do what he could...